Hello today was halloween and we did lots of stuff with candles. Me, Kevin, Steven, & Jesse went egging it was fun. I still can't kiss kevin easily but I can do anything else with him. I guess I have this phobia about kissing. Oh well. I was laying down and i had my head on his arm he was touching my hair and kissing my cheek and neck. I love him. Well Im gonna go write a poem now so ill see ya okay. Goodbye
Yup. I still have the whole "Pretty Woman" thing going on when it comes to kissing. I believe they have a conversation about this in "The Story of Us". The women talk about how they can give out the sex, but can't kiss when they are angry at their husbands.
I feel extremely vulnerable when it comes to kissing. Much more so than during sex. Not that I had sex with Kevin, but it would have been just as easy for me to initiate sex as it would to make it obvious I was looking for a kiss.